Aku hidup bergantung pada memori 256 MB

Jejak guntur menyelinap masuk dalam cahaya pandangan mataku..
Melolong diantara guratan telinga tipis ku..
Lalu melungsurkan ku kdalam realita ajaibnya kehidupan..
Termenung aku, merasa tiada sekejap..
Aku berdiri di bumi, tapi aku selalu serasa memeluk langit..
Mata redup ku menyisit objek yang tertangkap..
Tanpa jelas, tanpa arti, tanpa refisi,,

Aku hidup bergantung pada memori 256 MB..
Tidak cukup untuk menyisir Dunia Nyata ataupun Tidak nyata..

Aku hidup bergantung pada memori 256 MB..
Tidak cukup untuk menelaah ciptaan sepanjang masa..

Dan aku akan selalu hidup pada memori 256 MB..
Dan tidak cukup nyali untuk berperang melawan kenaifan manusia..

Tapi aku cukup kenyang pada memori 256 MB..
Yang cukup untuk menggendong anugerah terindah dan melangkah maju menuju waktu..

Waktu..

Aku mencintai waktu..
Waktu telah membantuku menyadari bahwa aku yang dulu duduk dibawah pohon cemara sambil membaca buku dan memakai seragam putih biru, sekarang sudah duduk di kursi nyaman dengan mengenakan Bluse dan sepatu seadal, menghadap LCD dan guru modis yang tak berseragam PNS..
Aku tidak pernah meninggalkan waktu, tapi aku selalu tertinggal oleh waktu..
Dan aku selalu menikmati tubuhnya dengan caraku..

Aku mencintai waktu..
Karna dia telah membuat ku mempunyai banyak penikmat hatiku..

Tapi aku membenci waktu..
Karna aku selalu di paksanya pergi untuk segera menyelesaikan kehidupan ku..
Dia selalu berbisik “ ayo cepat! Kalau tidak kau lakukan sekarang, genggam tangan ku dan kita pergi meninggalkan sesuatu yang tak akan bisa kau selesaikan..!”
Aku membenci waktu..
Karna ketika aku sudah bisa mencintai kelebihan cinta dari sela-selanya, waktu menamparku dan berteriak, “kau tidak akan pernah mendapatkan dia, jika kau hanya membuka sedikit jendela rumahmu, lalu kau hanya duduk memandangi ciptaan-Nya..”
Dan aku sangat membenci waktu..
Aku selalu berusaha memenuhi apa yang dia bisikkan..
Tapi dia tidak pernah mau ku gendong untuk berjalan kebelakang masa lalu..

Aku membenci sesuatu yang harusnya aku syukuri..
Waktu selalu menemaniku dan mendidikku secara militer..

Keras, tepat dan rela di utus-Nya untuk menghbiskan hdup bersama ku..

Aku ingin seperti waktu yang bisa selalu mengatakan,” hidup harus terus maju.. jadi, ayo bersahabat denganku karena aku adalah asisten terbaikmu”.

"HeM_Sa": Live is something that cannot be repeated

"HeM_Sa": Live is something that cannot be repeated

ANIMAL FARM

There is a Manor Farm. It is an animal husbandry which Mr. Jones’ have. One day, a pig, the old major, made a meeting among all animal in that farm. He said that he dreamt at last night and all of people had lost. The old major made resuscitation like a demonstration about human being. He made all animal aware that they always be hard done by human. He wants all animal get freedom. Three days latter after that, the old major was died.
At one night, all animal made against to Mr. Jones and the family. They made a rebellion and drive out them from the animal husbandry. After that, Snowball and Napoleon, they are two pigs who have cleverness like the old major, they become the leader there. Snowball was giving a lesson about reading to all animal, but not at all could to read.
Snowball and Napoleon always snatch away the domination for lead the farm. But Napoleon is a sly animal. He did all the way for Snowball, in order that Snowball got a bad reputation. In a meeting, Snowball wants to make a windmill. But Napoleon was accused to Snowball that he stolen Napoleon’s idea. Then, Napoleon gave command to his friends to drive out Snowball from that animal farm and he is the leader.
After the windmill has already built, a tornado was broken down it. But Snowball was accused to Napoleon that Snowball who did it. And then, Napoleon killed Snowball. After tat, napoleon was lead the farm with arbitrarily, but all animal still believe that their condition were better than when Mr. Jones become a leader there.
One day, napoleon made a meeting for pigs and human. People in Foxwood husbandry, gave congratulate to Napoleon because he has many diligent animal besides he always feed them a little food. There are many animal were hearing it. They know that Napoleon had already lied to them. And finally, all animal were aware that nothing different between pig’s face and human’s face.

Live is something that cannot be repeated

Making love n breaking love are the same things..

Both of them are the process of leading to mature..

Both of them are the things that we feel in our deepest heart..

However, it still has some differences..

The difference lies in how these two things make us happy and sad.

how these two things make us realize that life is something that can not be repeated.

The legend of my tooth!

In June 15, 2007, I got an accident. It happened when I was in the first grade of Senior High School. The accident had been change my life until now. The accident happened in Karanganyar-Tegal, when I would go to one of Malls in Tegal.
In that hot afternoon at 1 p., the road was so crowded. At that time, I was riding my motorcycle while sent SMS in the road. I used my left hand to sending SMS and I used my right hand to ride my motorcycle. I knew it was not dangerous. However I did it.
Because of that, I concentrated with my handphone too much and I didn’t pay attention about my motor’s way. So, I didn’t know that there was a motorcycle which was bringing two big boxes of fresh vegetables, in front of me. Than, our motorcycle were so close for each other, but I still didn’t know it. After I saw the motorcycle, I was shocked. Next, without thought, I turned my motorcycle to the right side. But I couldn’t control my motorcycle. So, I was flung and fly from my motorcycle. Because of that excellent accident, I got injury on my hand and my front tooth. My front tooth had been broke down and my face look so funny because I was toothless. In that time, I just cried, cried and cried. Many people there tried to make me calm down. Then, one of people there was bringing my motorcycle and me to go to my house.
One day after that at June 16, my parents ordered me to go to the dentist to check and repair my tooth. The dentist said that I had to change my broken tooth with imitation tooth and I hade to wait for one week to get the imitation tooth. So, I had to use masker for one week to close my swollen mouth. In that time, I didn’t believe that my sexy mouth looked so disgusting.
After one week, I got my imitation tooth. It made from porselin. The dentist said that my imitation tooth can’t have good function like the genuie tooth. The effect until now, I can’t to eat something too hot or too hard like stones, apples etc. in that time, I always thought that I was dreaming and I had to wake up for that bad dream. But, the reality, it was real and I wasn’t dreaming.
After that accident, I aware t had it was not good to use handphone when we rode a vehicle. I had to pay attention if I was in the road and I don’t want to do it anymore.

The Queer Story of My Name

The Queer Story of My Name
Hi? My name is Helen Marta Sari. People call me Helen. What do you think about my beautiful name? It is like bule’s (foreigner) name, right? Yeah, some people think like that. I often laughed, if I remembered the great reason why my parents gave me this name. I always felt that the reason was so queer and had no quality. My parents gave me a name spontanly in the hospital, after I was born in this world. The history happened in March 15th, 1992, when my mother was being pregnant.
At 22.00 p.m., mother who was being pregnant, felt stomachache. She felt that her baby, that was me, would be born. My father became didn’t concentrate because he was panic. Then, He searched his helmet because they would go by motorcycle.
But, my mother screamed loudly and said “what are you doing? Why are you looking for the helmet? Let’s go to the hospital!”. “But if we don’t use helmet, we will be under arrest by police, mom!” my father answered. My mother shouted “I don’t care about police!! I care about my baby.. Let’s go!”.
Finally, my father found the helmets and they went to the hospital. After arrived to the hospital, my father became panic until he forgot to open his helmet. He didn’t aware about it. Next, in delivery room, my mother screamed and my father screamed too. He stood beside my mother to give spirit and he still wore his helmet. Then, a cute baby was born. That was me. I was born hardly with extra energy by my mother. After I was born, I didn’t cry. Then, my father brought me and he looked at me.
“Oh my beautiful baby, you look so cute.. why you don’t cry? Come on sweety, please cry loudly!” said my father. He tried to make me crying by shaked my little body. Because he didn’t carefully about what he did, my father’s helmet bumped my head and I cried. “Oh..My baby you like your father’s helmet.”my mother said slowly. “Yeah, you like this helmet. Mom? Would you mind if I give her name, Helen? Because she likes helem.” my father said. “OK! It’s an interesting name!” said my mother with enthusiasm.
See? That is the queer story about my beautiful name. It is foolish. But I like it. Although my name’s story is so queer, I’m not angry with my parents actually my father who banged up me with his helmet. I love my name because there is a story behind it and my name is an interesting name.

My cat, Sapi !!!

Felis Trigis, also known as cat, is a mammal which has four legs and belongs to “Karnivora”. Cat has good sight, especially at night. To protect it self, cat using its claw. There are many kinds of cats. One of them is from Indonesia like my cat. I have three cats in my house. But, I prefer my small cat than the others because it is the cutest. I call it Sapi.
Sapi is a female small cat, which is about 20 cm long and 5-7 cm tall. It has green eyes and the color become shiny black at night. It is so beautiful. Sapi has black and white fur pattern like a cow. That is why I call my cat Sapi. The fur from its ears to its eyes is black. But, it has clean white fur on its face. Sapi’s tail is very long, so it can touch the floor. And the color of its tail is black. One of unique things from Sapi is the fur on its legs. Brown black is covering its four legs like socks.
Sapi likes eating very much. It can eat 4-5 times in a day. Sometimes, it often eats the grass in my front yard. Sapi often does this strange habit. Although Sapi is an animal, it has behavior like a human. Sapi sleeps at night and wakes up in the morning. My father said that Sapy always meows at about 4.30 a.m. in the front door of my house. Sapi stands the tail up and meows to wakes my family up. It always does it every day.
I love Sapi because it has unique things. If I stroke its neck, it always spoiled to me. But, I hated Sapi when it was licking my hands or my legs. I feel that so disgusting. Sometimes, I feel sad to Sapi. Its mother had lost when Sapi was young. But, it is no matter because my family and I will take care of it.

Bersih karena bohong.

Bersih karena bohong.
Siang itu, aku sangat kelelahan sepulang kuliah karena dosen yang membosankan dan mata kuliah yang cukup rumit menurutku. Aku yang sedang berjalan kepanasan karena terik matahari, tidak sengaja menjatuhkan kunci kamar kos ku ke dalam tumpukan sampah DAUN KERING yang berserakan di pinggir jalan. Secara spontan aku langsung mencari kunci ku. Aku mengorek-orek tumpukan sampah itu sampai semuanya berhamburan. Pada saat itu, aku seolah-olah melampiaskan kekesalanku atas hari membosankan ku di kampus pada sampah-sampah itu.
Waktu sedang mencari kunci ku, tiba-tiba datang seorang anak SD dengan membawa tas dan botol minuman yang tersampir di punggungnya. Dia menghampiri ku dan mulai bertanya “mbak, kamu lagi ngapain?”
Aku yang sedang mengorek-orek sampah, kaget dan merasa malu karena keadaan muka lusuhku yang seperti gembel. “emm,, aku lagi mbersihin sampah ini dek. Soalnya ngalangin jalan orang yang lewat. Knp dek?” jawabku.
“O gt y mbak.. aku bantu ya mbak, kasian mbak nya sendirian”, ucap anak itu sambil berjongkok dan mulai menyingkirkan kan sampah-sampah itu, lalu membuang nya ke tempat sampah di sekitar tempat itu.
“mskasih ya dek..”, ujarku.
Aku brfikir dan berkata dalam hati, “baik banget ni anak..hmm ya udah deh. Aku cari kunci ku, sekalian aku juga menyingkirkan sampah ini.”
Selama kami membersihkan sampah itu, aku mengajak anak itu mengobrol tentang siapa namaya, dimana tempat tinggal nya dan lain-lain sampai akhirnya aku menemukan kunci ku dan semua sampah terkumpul di tempat sampah. Setelah selesai, aku berkata, “ makasih y dek dah bantu.. yuk pulang..”
Anak itu menjawab, “iya mbak..”(dengan senyum malu-malu).
Kejadian itu membuatku sadar bahwa untuk menocontohkan hal yang baik pada seseorang, kita tidak harus menjadi diri kita sendiri. Hal spontanitas yang kita perbuat pada saat dalam kondisi yang kurang baik(sperti tadi), juga bisa menjadi contoh bagi orang lain. Mungkin itu hanya filosofi ku semata. Tapi itu terjadi pada diriku.